Lindsay's Journal

Wow home sick today, well actually I just don't wake up anymore, blah I wish I had someone to get my ass out of bed. I think I have insomnia, no seriously, I can never just fall asleep and by the time I do it's like 2 a.m. and then I just don't hear my alarm clock and I wake up at like 10 wtf. I am sick tho, just a cold but still feelin kinda meh. Anyways, vacation was awesome, I was house sitting the whole week and had some cool people over mmm good times. I applied to Marshalls yea can u say desperate? I really hope I get it I need the moula....bad. Alrite well I'm headin back to bed, leave some much needed love por favor :)

Hmm so yea it's been a while since I've updated, I've been kind of busy lately....Last weekend was amazing, I went to Connecticut on fri.-sat. and had a blast. The week was kind of hectic and I was swamped with hw and completely stressed. I'm so glad vaca is finally here I need it. I'm house sitting in w. newbury till the 25th makin some moula. (sleep over Thurs. for those of u I invited...) Um last nite was pretty chill, me, Leeman, Dan Holgate, and Dave chillaxed and went glow bowling at Academy Lanes then came back to W. Newbury and hung out for a bit. Today was pretty relaxing, just went out to dinner for my mom's bday and Im probably gonna use the rest of the night to do college stuff Im a loser I know. Tomorrow night Im taking Ms. Binette out to dinner for her 18th then possibly to amazing to get some kinky sex toys oo la la. (Happy bday pee wee!!) Alrite well that pretty much sums everything up, leave some love <3

Woo thank god this week is almost over it was crazy and wicked stressful. This weekend is gonna kik some serious butt...Friday I'm making the 3 hours trekk to CT to see an oh so special someone (super excited), sat. nite I'm celebrating Kate's a.k.a Pee Wee's 18th bday with everyone, should be quite the celebration, and Sunday I'm chillaxin with Jared which should be sweeeet. Neways, I've been in a really good mood lately, despite the stress of school, mostly becuz of a certain someone who I have fallen hardcore for <3. Kaitlyn asked me to go to Umass with her and party it up but my schedule may be too packed for such nonsense hehe jk <3 we'll see how it goes. Ugh I'm so busy, so much to do and such little time to do it....leave some much needed love <3

Theres like 40 days of school left, omg I cant wait to get out , I want summer so bad, and college o man college is most definately something to look forward to. Champlain is my definate pick after I heard I didnt get into Clark meh watever Im sure it would have made the desicion much harder if I had. Burlington VT. is looking more and more appealing every day, I cant wait to leave this fishbowl behind. Anyways, things have been good lately, well with the exception of my grandmother dying, but she was sick for a while so I'm really glad she's finally at peace. This weekend should be good, tomorrow nite Im going to see FeverPitch and Sunday Im chillin with my mom for a bit then probably going to hang out with my prom date dave. I can't wait till vacation, Im housesitting and making some moula, I can have a few people over so I may have a lil slumber party who knows. Blah is so shitty outside, Im kinda in a bad mood for several reasons, its really hard to pinpoint but yeah I dont know...ok gotta go attempt to be productive...leave some much needed love....

Anyone wanna participate in the AIDS Walk with the Civil Rights Team on June 5th?? Just talk to me, kate,or jess and we'll sign ur asses up!! lol <3 the more the merrier ;D

Wow it's been a while since Ive updated...last Friday was the best early release day in the history of early releases...Tricia, Thea, and I embarked upon the hour journey to Olive Garden , ok so it was supposed to take about 30 minutes but we got a lil sidetracked a.k.a. lost but it was quite the trip. We encountered some horny truckers who stalked us for most of the way but I think it was because Thea flashed them or maybe it was cuz of the signs we held up saying " honk if ur horny" but who knows. So after going through the same toll 4 times we FINALLY made it to our destination and were starving by the time we got there. So yeah we were almost kicked out about ten times for causing a ruckus and sticking bread down our shirts and my showing off my lack of a gag reflex but it was well worth it cuz the food was muy bueno and the oh so sexy waiter kept giving us the eye lol. Neways the weekend went by pretty fast, last nite was my last bball banquet ever :( it was so sad,props to the underclassmen for the kik ass gifts <3 u guys....To Jess Boutin: ur definately one of my favorite underclassmen and ur definately coming to visit me next year....I am truly honored that u consider me ur idol lol I have no idea why but I appreciate i, I love you....alrite Im out, leave some lovin <3

I just came home and waiting for me was an acceptance letter to Bryant University! Im not sure if Id end up going there, I kinda already decided on Champlain thinking Bryant was a reach, it kinda depends on how much money each school offers aaah this makes my desicion so much harder. Bryant is more of a business school but academically it ranks higher than Champlain, ah but Champlain is absolutely gorgeous and also three hours away which is also appealing, damnit! lol Well Im kinda psyched cuz I really really didnt thnk I was gonna get accepted, it was definately on my list of reach schools...

Its early in the morning
And my heart is really moaning
Just thinkin bout you baby
Gots me twisted into things
And i dont know how to take it
But its driving me so crazy
I dont know if its right
Im tossin turning in my bed
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And i still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Breathe ....i dont care
So helpless in my heart
I dont know what to do but to think of mi love
Baby...

Amor , no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart

Now i know you know my lady im just tryin to make this right
I dont know what to do im going out of my mind
So baby if u let me could i getchu to say maybe we could ride together
We could do this all nite now i dont care if u got a man
Baby i wish ud understand
Cuz i kno he cant love u right, quite like i can
Its 5 oclock in the morning
And i still cant sleep
Thinkin bout your beauty it makes me
Breathe ....i dont care
So helpless in my heart
I dont kno what to do but to think of mi love

Amor no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong)
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart

I like the way u freak it like that
I like the way u freak it like that
I like the way u freak it like that
Its an up for sho

Hold up let me drink
Shorty got me feelin less supreme
Where my candy, where my cream
Got your boy feel less supreme
Hold up wait a minute baby you so damn independent
Loving everything your representing
Got alot of money, i love this candy
And thats whats up and i dont care what people scream
No im blessin when im stressin
My superfly beauty queen
Im gonna keep it saucy
Cuz my money know how i do, we go rendevous to this song to you

Amor ...no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong) what am i do wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart
Amor... no es amor (if this aint love)
More than my feelings (what am i doing wrong) what am i do so wrong [echo]
Amor, no es amor (if this aint love)
Its just an illusion that i have in my heart

Amor

Stayed home aaaaallll day and chillaxed till like 6, which was awesome cuz Ive been so tired lately and just kinda meh...so lets see instead of going to the senior vs. faculty bball game and trying to play when I feel like crap I made jared dinner and we watched The Notebook <3 that movie.....pssst jared was crying like a little girl, but dont tell him I told you.....:D. Newho, tomorrow I thnk I may have some people over, Im a lil scared tho cuz these people's neighbors are the devil's reincarnate and they may spill the beans. Soooo if I decide against it I am hanging out with the mother, yeah thats rite bitches my mom...Its been a while since Ive seen her and she may keep me company in this scary house, afterwards I may be chilln with Meg Swartz my one and only cuz we always make plans but the bitch never follows through lol jk....No school Monday woo hoooo!! I dont even know wat to do with myself, the excitement is just too much to handle. And omg half day Friday jesus this is gonna be a good week I can feel it. Leave me some lovin <3

Missin the bball girls like crazy :(
last banquet ever the 28th <3

I'm ready for a fresh start

This week has been pretty good all in all, well with the exception of possibly having mono and my near death experience with the Red Cross Nazis. I went to school today, sounds pretty routine but yeah um not for me lol. The day went by pretty slow until F block when Trish, Carrie,Haley, and I discussed horse poop and how putting a bag of it in the ventilation system should be our senior prank, o man its so sad that that was the highlight of my day (so far) lol. So Im housesitting till next Wed., its a little lonely over here so if u'd like to stop by for a quickie I mean a visit feel free. Although I have to admit Maisy, matilda,lucy,winslow, and Matty are a freakin blast, they're party animals..literally. Tomorrow nite should be fun, seniors against faculty bball game, woo we better win or Ill be forced to shoot mr. goldberg in the face :), afterwards I thinkIm gonna make an appearance at Bud's "lil get together" should be a good time.Possible sleep over with Kristina tonite, if she gets her act together and gets outta babysitting early that stupid bitch, if she cant jared may be keeping me company...so yeah K please please get ur act together :D. Alrite Im out, leave me some lovin

Name? Linds

Date of birth? Feb. 3 87

Height? 5'4''

Eye color? hazel

Where were you born? westboro, Ma

Do you have crush on someone? yeah

Do you have a bf/gf? no :-/

What are you wearing right now? boxers/tank top

Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers? just my husband Mr. Hastings and my b/f on the side Mr.Murphy

Are you a virgin? no, but in a few more months I think i could qualify as a born again (yeah its been that long)

Do you drink? yeah once in a while

What are your favorite colors? any shade of blue

What is your favorite animal? the penguin becuz they mate for life <3 aw romantic

Who are your best friends? franci, kristina,kate,tiffany

Are you shy or outgoing?haha def outgoing
Do you hate school? yes, hence me never going

How easily do you trust people? depends, I trust all of my closest friends, but it takes me a while to trust new people

Have you ever lied to your best friends?not my best friends

Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing? god yes .

Would you ever sky Dive? yes

Do you like to dance?sure, well depends who its with

Have you ever been out of state? yeah, u'd go crazy if u were in Ma 24/7/365

Do you like to travel? def

Have you ever been suspended from school? nope, Im a good girl
Do you want to get out of your hometown? yes pleas

What's your favorite drink? diet coke

Do you like Snapple? depends wat flavor

Do you drink a lot of water? not enough

What toothpaste do you use? mentodent

Do you have a cell phone or pager? yes i have a cell

Do you have a curfew? nope, ah how sweet to be 18

Are you a role model? am i? lol according to jess boutin I am

What name brand do you wear the most? ummm American Eagle/Express (my style varies)

What kind of jewelry do you wear? ummm earrings, bellybutton bar, nose stud, rings, bracelet(s)

What do you have pierced? ears, bellybutton, nose

What do you want pierced? more on my ears

Do you like taking pictures? yes!

Do you like getting your picture taken?no

Do you have a tan?ummm semi, I need to go way more

Do you get annoyed easily? umm depends wat time of the month it is

Do you have your own pool? no way

Do you have any siblings?21 year old brother who I disowned a long time ago

Have you ever been played? no?

Have you ever played someone?no

Do you get along with your parents?yeah I <3 my mom

How do you vent your anger?I swear a lot but I dont usually get angry

Have you ever run away? yeah twice

Have you ever been fired from a job? nope

Do you even have a job? random odd jobs..gotta get a real one

Do you daydream a lot? haha 24/7, hence my current report card

Do you have a lot of ex’s? ummmm ive lost count so thatd be a yes

Are you on good terms with them? yeah for the most part, still workin on one

What are your favorite flowers?pink roses

Are you rude? i hope not

What was the last compliment you received? "you're my idol" lol random

Is your bellybutton an innie or outie? innie

What does your hair look like right now? ummm up in a messy bun

Could you ever be a vegetarian? no, but I dont eat nething with four legs

When was your last real heartbreak? two months ago :(

If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? blonde

Would you ever date someone younger than you? yeah

Would you ever date someone older than you?yep, itd be really convenient if they just happened to be 21

When was the last time you were drunk? this morning haha jk, ummm a few weeks ago

Would you rather give or receive oral sex? depends on who im giving it to/whos giving it to me
.

Have you ever had an eating disorder? meh yeah

Have you ever been skinny dipping?lol yeah it was awesome

Do you cry a lot? not really

Do you ever cry to get your way? nope

What phrase do you use most on the phone?yeeeeup

Have you ever been chased by cops? lol no, "Im a good girl"

When was the last time you threw up?this morning

In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes? doesnt really matter

Is your best friend a virgin?ummm 1/3

What size shoe do you wear? 6/6.5

What is your screen name on AIM?Megalomaniac2602

How are you feeling right now? nauseas/tired

When was the last time you were at a party?ummm a few weeks ago

What do you sleep in? lol most of the time I sleep naky

Has there ever been a rumor spread about you? lol like every other day, my life must be extremely interesting

What is one of your bad qualities? im a control freak

What is one of your good qualities? my sense of humor I guess, or my "smartassness"

Would you marry for money?depends, Id never pull an Anna Nicole, having sex with old wrinkly men just isnt my thing

What do you drive? a POS, a.k.a. Nissan Sentra

When was the last time you cried in school? umm beginning of January, when brett told me to fuck off

Do you wish you had a girlfriend/boyfriend?singlehood has its benefits but Id rather have something real

Looks or Personality? PERSONALITY..god personality..especially if they amuse me a lot, but come on u have to admit looks do matter a lil

Do you hate your life after completing this survey? nope I <3 my life, things happen for a reason

Still feelin kinda crummy since yesterday, giving blood is not all its cracked up to be, they tell u you're saving a life but I've caught onto there little scheme, it's all stored in a huge warehouse and the people from the Red Cross are really aliens from outerspace who wanna drain us all of our blood and take over the planet.

Blah I can never sleep!!! wtf, maybe I just have too much on my mind lately but Im not sure wat....I know Im gonna regret staying up tomorrow when Im suffering through A.P. government fighting to keep my eyes open. Neways, tomorrow Im hanging out with <3 Nicole, I havent seen her in a while so we're goin to the Loop and catchin a movie and eatin some grub at Friday's mmmm now thats some good eatin. I start house sitting on Thursday Im pretty psyched, Leemans gonna stay over with me and keep the boogie man away, aw my hero. I'm really tempted to throw a party but I know they'd find out so I'm still debating, I may just have a couple of my closest gal pals stay over, yeah thats rite I said closest, not girls who randomly im me only when I have something good going on. (You know who you are) :) CRT meeting tomorrow morning, Im lookin forward to coordinating a trip to Rosey's Place hopefully over April vaca, and there mite be a speaker coming to talk to the school about sexual orientation and cool stuff like that so that'll be gooood. So yeah, I dont have nething else to say really but I cant sleep so Im gonna go on about absolutely NOTHING. I really wanna go into Boston this weekend and shop or just walk around Fanuel Hall, anyone wanna come with?? Meh ok Im done, time to find something else to pass the time, sleep would be nice....leave something good to make me smile:)

[] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've smoked weed.
[x] I've gotten high.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I've attempted to run away from home.
[ ] I've lied to my parents regularly about where I am.
[ ] I've failed 2 or more classes in one marking period.
[_] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[x] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[_] I am for Bush.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[_] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x ] I watch the news.
[x_] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod.
[x] I'm not a virgin.
[ x] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for blonde hair/black hair/blue eyes.
[] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I talk in ebonics, except for around black people.
[ ] I curse regularly.
[_] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[x] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have an "x" in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[_] I love Spam.
[x] I bake well.
[] I would not wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I sneak out of the house often.
[] I have a job.
[] I love Martha Stewart.
[_] I am in love
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[] I think Napoleon Dynamite is overrated.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[_] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[x] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I win people over easily.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[_] I have many scars.
[] I've been out of this country.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I see a therapist.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[_] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[ ] I bite my lip a lot.

Dr. Venuti's head is too small for his body

The End

I decided to forget we ever existed, it's easier to pretend that this chapter in my life never occurred. Moving on is nearly impossible when you see the person every day....So I'm pretending he was nothing to me, I'm gonna push the memories to the back of my mind and look at him as if he was just like any other guy. Yea, thats exactly what I'll do, it's time to start fresh, it's time to put myself out there and give my "whole" self to someone new, it would have been impossible to do that if I allowed myself to think of him or remember what we had.

Aquarius - Your Love Profile



Your positive traits:

You've got a ton of friends, so you have no problem meeting new people.
You're great at thinking up new things and actitives to do with your sweetie.
You tend to let the little things slide in relationships... and focus on the bigger picture.

Your negative traits:

In relationships, it tends to be your way or the highway.
You can never open up completely to someone - you have to keep parts of yourself secret.
You're cold and reserved, which leaves your partner feeling unloved.

Your ideal partner:

Flexible, because you're not going to be the one to compromise!
Is smart and quirky with lots of weird interests... including you.
A true indivdualist who doesn't care what anyone thinks

Your dating style:

Stimulating. You prefer dates that explore a shared interest - like a lecture, muesum tour, or concert.

Your seduction style:

Wacky. Your wild ideas have your lover wondering what's next.
Insatiable - it takes a lot to satisfy your desires.
Varied. You're eager to try things as soon as you learn about them.

Tips for the future:

Bring a little responsibility to your relationship - like showing up for dates!
Compromise a little. It would kill you to do things your lover's way for once.
Be aware of your parnter's jealousy. Even though you aren't jealous, realize your partner is sometimes.

Best place to meet someone online:

Match.com - there's enough singles to find offbeat dates and tons of romantic adventure

Best color to attract mate: Sky blue

Best day for a date: Wednesday

Thank god this bitch of a week is over, it was so rough, im so sick of school and the endless drama that has come to define gtown high. Ugh senioritis has consumed me! I have some mixed feelings rite now about some things, I just wanna apologize to some certain people that I may have hurt or affected negatively recently, it was completely unintentional, but I appreciate everyone in my life rite now, I dont know where id be without u guys. But on a lighter note, things between me and my mom seem to be going well, I think our relationship has changed for the better now that Im not so caught up with things going on between me and brett. I think I kind of disregarded her and ignored the issues between us because my primary focus was my relationship, I think that this break up has made me more sensitive toward other people and made me realize how I neglected some of my friendships. Alrite well there are some of my thots for the day, leave one ;)